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Thursday, 28 July 2011

Thoughts on school

Alice has completed her first 3 weeks at school and has now finished for the summer.

My initial thoughts are that this is going to be so good for her. She is by nature a very quiet and shy person and being at home has been great for her to immerse herself in that but I have started to doubt whether this will stand her in good stead for the future? I would never want to change who she is but I also think that she can sometimes miss out by being too afraid to put herself forward. I recognise her internal struggle in myself and it's only now at the age of 38 I've found coping mechanisms to deal with the fear. My hope is that being with others who don't feel the same worry she will also finds ways of putting her point across without the shutters coming down.

The work side has been really good too. The art department have been magnificent in their efforts to get her caught up with the other students and Alice loves the facilities in the textiles rooms. She has also found a fondness for science which I think she has surprised herself with. After being 1 mark off an A in her first week of being there maybe she has a hidden talent??

It really feels like the world is suddenly opening up for the children and they and I are are excited by this thought. It had felt like something needed to shift over the past year. As wonderful as Home Ed has been for us, we simply had to face the fact that no matter how much we love being at home together it can't stay like that forever and the girls will need to shape lives for themselves at some point.

Izzy and Liv are also very excited about what the future has in store for them. I hope their first weeks are as positive as Alice's have been :o)

Tuesday, 5 July 2011


So the girls have decided after 4 years to return to school!

Alice had her first day last Wednesday and really it couldn't have gone better. She was so brave and calm about it all and when she came in through the door she was bouncy and happy. Everyone had been so kind and helpful and she didn't get lost once!

The last four years have been an absolute gift but it now seems time to move on to the next chapter. The older the girls are getting the harder HE has been for us. We have nothing really local so every to trip to spend time with other home educators is at the very least a 30 minute drive in the car.

Alice is in need of independence and that's hard when you don't have friends that are just up the road. She was starting to feel lonely and really wanted to spread her wings so after a long talk on the train to London we decided to give it a go. Whilst chatting it transpired that Liv and Iz would also like to have a go at school. Izzy is missing friends she has locally and spending an hour with them at Guides once a week isn't enough. Liv the most social of all 3 girls and she just wants to be with people!

I guess I've always thought about the girls as being MY little girls but actually they have needs that are independent of me. When they are small all they want to do is be with Mummy and Daddy but they are growing faster than I could ever of imagined and that just isn't enough anymore. I think we probably have a stronger family unit than a lot of people and that makes this a little easier because we all know that we will support each through whatever life throws at us.

So I'm just sitting back and enjoying the positives this new change will bring and not dwelling on the feelings of failure that keep trying to show themselves.